please pray

[Ocean_Undertow]

Hi everybody, please pray for me.

I don't want to write a long drawn out prayer but basically I humbly ask that someone sincerely pray that I get a revelation of God's love and power in my life. All my life I've struggled with depression pretty much my whole life and I don't know how to break it. Different things that I've dealt with in my past have really had a negative impact on my view of the Lord. It's always been up and down, up and down. Sometimes I'm close to Him and sometimes I'm so far away. I wish I could just stay with Him and not leave.

I talk to my boyfriend about these things. He's really supportive but we're both struggling in our Christianity. We've made some mistakes in our relationships and did not put God first and because of that God separated us and we are living in two different states right now. When he moved it shook me to the very core but I know it's an opportunity for the both of us to develop ourselves in Christ so that we can be stronger Christians when we come back together. I know God wants me to put Him first.

The problem is when I think about God it's hard for me to think about good things. When I think about God I think about punishment and loss and loneliness and heaviness of heart. I know that there is joy in the Lord and I hear Christians talk about it all the time but I find it so impossible for me to find. I've been disobedient to God so many times but even when I was living "right" my heart was still heavy. Even when I try to pray I just end up in tears. I want to go back to the church I used to attend when I was younger but the last time I went I felt so out of place and like I didn't belong. I felt ashamed because alot of my peers (I'm 23) are further on in life than I am and I feel like a failure compared to them. I feel like I don't have a place in church anymore. People say that's the place to belong but all the people there my age have their own "cliques".

At this point I don't know what to do. I feel so lost in my life and I feel so lonely that I can hardly take it. I feel so desperate and depressed. When I'm not at work I sleep all day and try not to think about cutting like I used to. I need the Lord so much but when I think about Him I feel sad. I feel like I'm viewing life from behind a black veil. I need the joy of the Lord in my life. I need the righteousness of God in my life.

[pastor]

Hi everybody, please pray for me.

I don't want to write a long drawn out prayer but basically I humbly ask that someone sincerely pray that I get a revelation of God's love and power in my life. All my life I've struggled with depression pretty much my whole life and I don't know how to break it. Different things that I've dealt with in my past have really had a negative impact on my view of the Lord. It's always been up and down, up and down. Sometimes I'm close to Him and sometimes I'm so far away. I wish I could just stay with Him and not leave.

I talk to my boyfriend about these things. He's really supportive but we're both struggling in our Christianity. We've made some mistakes in our relationships and did not put God first and because of that God separated us and we are living in two different states right now. When he moved it shook me to the very core but I know it's an opportunity for the both of us to develop ourselves in Christ so that we can be stronger Christians when we come back together. I know God wants me to put Him first.

The problem is when I think about God it's hard for me to think about good things. When I think about God I think about punishment and loss and loneliness and heaviness of heart. I know that there is joy in the Lord and I hear Christians talk about it all the time but I find it so impossible for me to find. I've been disobedient to God so many times but even when I was living "right" my heart was still heavy. Even when I try to pray I just end up in tears. I want to go back to the church I used to attend when I was younger but the last time I went I felt so out of place and like I didn't belong. I felt ashamed because alot of my peers (I'm 23) are further on in life than I am and I feel like a failure compared to them. I feel like I don't have a place in church anymore. People say that's the place to belong but all the people there my age have their own "cliques".

At this point I don't know what to do. I feel so lost in my life and I feel so lonely that I can hardly take it. I feel so desperate and depressed. When I'm not at work I sleep all day and try not to think about cutting like I used to. I need the Lord so much but when I think about Him I feel sad. I feel like I'm viewing life from behind a black veil. I need the joy of the Lord in my life. I need the righteousness of God in my life.

Greetings in the Lord!! Hi precious!! First let me welcome you my child to our family!!! God sent you here precious for a reason! A lot of us have gone through many difficult times and some of us know quite well about depression! I suffer from major clinical depression and I know how it can bring you down sis! I took celexa for a long time without seeing much difference. It's been many months now that I haven't taken it, but am praying and believing that God is going to bring me through this. But let me suggest that you consider seeing your family doctor...ok? Because I have friends who are on meds and doing fine! Being here has helped me tremendously my child!!! All of us here were guided by God!!! It really helps being apart of this family because we support one another in so many ways!!! We support, pray, encourage, listen to, care and love one another very much!!!! I will certainly pray my precious!!! Please consider finding a Church that you feel comfortable being a part of...ok? There are Churches out there that will meet what you need. And my child, God really does love you so very very much!!!! You are going to come through this!!!! My name is Martha and if you need me sis, I'm here for you!!! Our Bible Study forum has many different studies on a variety of topics which one of them just might be a help to you!!! Several of us post pretty regularly studies. Let us help you and love you precious!!! BIG HUGSSSS!!!! God bless!!! I love ya!!! your sis in Christ, pastor

[Mel_M]

We pray that God will fill you more and more with his love and his Holy Spirit, and that you will grow rapidly into your wonderful destiny. Jesus said, ‘I have come that you might have life, and have it abundantly.’

[Ocean_Undertow]

Thank you all so much for your encouragement. Lately things have been better but I do have my days. I thank God for all of you!